Eyes That Saved Me From Myself

Never Asleep (Hudson River, New York City)

I knew it. I knew the moment it happened. I had seen these eyes before.  They were the familiar pair I had seen all too frequently in my hopes and dreams.  It was that very same pair of eyes that looked over me in my sleep, hoping that they themselves would get a chance to have the same in return.
Through the fires of trials and tribulations we seek to find answers. We search our lives over for the person who can look us over and see the better version of ourselves. The person who can undress our souls with a glance that conveys the deepest meanings of love, admiration, and forgiveness. This delicate dance gives way to an equilibrium that offers us peace.  The balance we are most likely to obtain in this life, does not always come from a person. When in fact it does, it can be the finest of rudders in the choppiest of seas, steering us where we need to be, when we need to be there.
Yes, I knew it. Her eyes were the eyes that would make the difference. Throughout my life and all my miscalculation of choice, her eyes would be the eyes that would save me from myself. When I look at her, I draw from it truth, regain my innocence lost, and plot a course of success, because she deserves for me to return that gift to her in the form of the world.
I have seen the sunset hit her eyes, and in those eyes I could see my reflection. In those seconds, I was able to see myself as she sees me, and I knew not only that I am imperfect and to be loved, but that she loves me.

These are the eyes that will forever save me from myself.

Till next time.

Love,  LO

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Boundless.

SNM

Wonder when. Not if. (Jekyll Island, GA)

Commitment. A titanic mass of dedicative thought and emotion.  The people that understand it, elude us like two ships passing each other in the night, essentially turning us into hunters and gatherers for its attention and time.  The people that cannot grasp its significance are the ones that are more easily found. Turning each one of them up under rock, crack and crevice with the day to day goings on of our busy lives.
Some of us are capable of giving ourselves wholly to somebody and something. These are the people we should seek out and yes, even wait upon.  It is these same people that will give us everything in this life and the life to come. It is the people that choose to stay and fight for something great, rather than run and flee from their own insecurities and fears that they choose to hold more closely to themselves.
The ones who casually observe commitment, come in and out of our lives in droves. You do not have to seek hard to find them. They will latch onto everything you hold closely to yourself and use it against you. They will cheat you out of the most rewarding experiences life has to offer.  They will choose themselves and their own passions rather than realize that both themselves and their passions are the single most powerful instruments that can change a life.

“Commitment, in its truest sense, is the epitomization of a belief and passion in something or someone that you choose to apply the infinite amount of work ethic necessary to see it and them through to the end.”

Every positive outcome in life, is in one way or another, is an extension or a result of some varying degree of commitment.  Whether it be a career, hobby, any level of self sustainability, and yes LOVE. Any form of love, in its truest state is commitment and commitment is love.

Till next time.

Love, LO

Memory.

Memory.

Stillest Of Waters.

Stillest Of Waters.

Some Kind Of Believable.

Crossroads (Smyrna,GA)

7:30AM

My days always start the same. A belief, that with each new day there is somehow a way to make all the wrong right, to choose to latch onto hope rather than embrace my own fears. Always asking myself the same question.

Is this all there really is?

I believe in things in this life.
I believe you should sometimes act first and never second guess yourself after.
I believe you should give your whole heart to someone.
I believe that a creative mind is a limitless mind.
I believe in sacrificing everything for all those I love.
I believe that balance is the single hardest thing to maintain in life.
I believe that failure at anything brings me one step closer to success.
I believe that even in my weaknesses, I find strengths.

I just simply want to believe in the idea of belief itself. As long as I believe in something or someone, especially myself and who and what I love, I have everything I need to get through this life and the next.

Love,

LO

Find The Small.

My heart thinks. Allowing my fingers to speak.

First of all, I wanted to thank all of you for the emails of support and encouragement. What started out as an outlet, has turned out to be so much more. I am not just satisfied that these words of encouragement on this page have been a point of relation, but I am fulfilled that they are able to touch, to move, and to cause a stirring of the soul. You guys are amazing for taking the time to read and to digest all of it.
This will be my last post until after the New Year. I want to take some time to reflect, and to spend time with my family who push me to be the best version of myself that is humanly possible. I do plan to take in as much as I can until the New Year so that 2014 can be the most self revealing year yet.
I want to leave you with a thought….

It always starts out with a nudge. A whisper. That delicate balance between what is the lie we tend to be convinced of, or the truth we have been in search of. It is always found in the small.

The smallest detail.
The smallest bit of digestible advice.
The smallest act of kindness.
The memorable lyric.
The smallest beauty nature has to offer.

We sometimes over look the small that will teach us the life lessons that leads us to the big. The big being not just the light at the end of some tunnel, but the tunnel itself that we must go through in order to become who we will be for the rest of our lives.

Find the small.

Love, LO

Live Free.

(Photo: A long stretch of South Georgia Highway)

I have gotten into my share of scrapes and bruises in life. All too often I feel like I ended up on the opposite end of a win loss column.

These outcomes were mostly determined by the choices I made. All, while taking my deepest breaths and longest moments of pause. Some of these alternatives were selected so that I did not have to feel the pain that sometimes life offers up.

As I look back, feeling the pain of life came a distant second to the horror of feeling the fear of life itself, and all that it has the ability to point in my direction. In my mind, avoidance was not only my best offense, it was inappropriately my best defense. It could always be preemptive in nature. It was much easier to defend, deflect and dodge, than to ever have to deal with the “in your face” truths.

We often make the mistake of placing more importance on fearing pain than we do on feeling it.
Pain is not the enemy, fear is. The crippler of dreams. Pain, as many of us are aware, lets us all know we are still alive. It is an overlooked character of life that is not going away anytime soon. It really is its own entity, impolitely making its presence known by tapping us on the shoulder to remind us of not just the wound itself, but the reason we are here to begin with.
Close your eyes. Slow your world down. Feel it, just do not fear it.

Love, LO

Time.

Solitude. (Shot at Piedmont Park Atlanta, GA)

Solitude. (Shot at Piedmont Park Atlanta, GA)

Time has a very funny way of showing us it cares. More often than not, we run out of it, always leaving us with our backs to the wall. It surely only respects us as long as we show it respect. If we manage it properly, if we keep ourselves in check long enough to sort through our own thoughts and feelings.
There are quite a few moments I look back on and reflect. I look at time lost and time well spent. I look back on how I could have treated my time a lot better. However we feel about our time on this earth, it is so important to not lose track of it. Lose track of time, and we run the risk of losing ourselves. Whatever you do, don’t blink, life passes us up. Choose to live.

Till next time, LO

All My Life…

All My Life…

Self reflection is such a huge part of my life. I will be blogging about it next…but for now let me leave you guys with the thought above. Love, LO