I knew it. I knew the moment it happened. I had seen these eyes before. They were the familiar pair I had seen all too frequently in my hopes and dreams. It was that very same pair of eyes that looked over me in my sleep, hoping that they themselves would get a chance to have the same in return.
Through the fires of trials and tribulations we seek to find answers. We search our lives over for the person who can look us over and see the better version of ourselves. The person who can undress our souls with a glance that conveys the deepest meanings of love, admiration, and forgiveness. This delicate dance gives way to an equilibrium that offers us peace. The balance we are most likely to obtain in this life, does not always come from a person. When in fact it does, it can be the finest of rudders in the choppiest of seas, steering us where we need to be, when we need to be there.
Yes, I knew it. Her eyes were the eyes that would make the difference. Throughout my life and all my miscalculation of choice, her eyes would be the eyes that would save me from myself. When I look at her, I draw from it truth, regain my innocence lost, and plot a course of success, because she deserves for me to return that gift to her in the form of the world.
I have seen the sunset hit her eyes, and in those eyes I could see my reflection. In those seconds, I was able to see myself as she sees me, and I knew not only that I am imperfect and to be loved, but that she loves me.
These are the eyes that will forever save me from myself.
My days always start the same. A belief, that with each new day there is somehow a way to make all the wrong right, to choose to latch onto hope rather than embrace my own fears. Always asking myself the same question.
Is this all there really is?
I believe in things in this life.
I believe you should sometimes act first and never second guess yourself after.
I believe you should give your whole heart to someone.
I believe that a creative mind is a limitless mind.
I believe in sacrificing everything for all those I love.
I believe that balance is the single hardest thing to maintain in life.
I believe that failure at anything brings me one step closer to success.
I believe that even in my weaknesses, I find strengths.
I just simply want to believe in the idea of belief itself. As long as I believe in something or someone, especially myself and who and what I love, I have everything I need to get through this life and the next.
Time has a very funny way of showing us it cares. More often than not, we run out of it, always leaving us with our backs to the wall. It surely only respects us as long as we show it respect. If we manage it properly, if we keep ourselves in check long enough to sort through our own thoughts and feelings.
There are quite a few moments I look back on and reflect. I look at time lost and time well spent. I look back on how I could have treated my time a lot better. However we feel about our time on this earth, it is so important to not lose track of it. Lose track of time, and we run the risk of losing ourselves. Whatever you do, don’t blink, life passes us up. Choose to live.